When the days start to bleed...

Day 1, led into Day 2, then day four, five and six flew by.  Truthfully I don't know what the day is now.  I have not worked on my writing in a few days.  I've been kind of blah and stressed at the same time.  Overwhelmed and under motivated.  Why? Keeps popping up in my vocabulary.  And I have managed to break every single one of my resolutions.  Because of the stress I'm back to watching TV for escape, which is causing me to not want to do anything else including go to the gym.  I'm drinking more coffee to combat the fatigue and that means less water.  Staying up later and not staying on routine.  The only resolution I managed to keep was reading more  but it hasn't been much more.  And I'm feeling so off center about everything.  Vicious, vicious circle.

The first week of January (poof) gone.  And here I sit at the monitor trying to find out what direction to go.

I was laying in bed after my nap.  I started thinking. I wonder if I can go a whole month without turning on the TV.  What would that (1) change make in my life?  Can I really go thirty whole days without flipping on my good ole' TV?  Sadly, even I don't think I could make it a whole month.  Then again it might be worth a try.  I was going to say wait until Monday, isn't that the best day to start change, but I don't think I should wait that long.  I need to put a sign on the TV - Do not turn me on by punishment of painful death.  Put a calendar up to mark the days I am successful.  Just do it.  (No Nike, you do not get any money cause I said that.)

OMG - that cuts me out of the BCS game between Bama and LSU.  I guess I could go to the gym.  If I'm at the gym then it wouldn't count, right?  Kind of like a candy bar and diet coke cancel each other out.  Ok, the rule will be I can't turn on the TV in my house for a month.  If I want to watch TV I have to go to the gym.  Hmmm, almost sounds fair.

One step...quite an adventure.